Absorbing The Disarray

Return exhausted to the furthest corners of existence

Contemplating the actions executed

Still no reaction, no mental spark

Nothing ignites, nothing triggers the soul

The only awakening drug is mayhem and chaos

I reek of indifference

Disillusioned by my perception

There's no way back

Spiralling down this horrid path with no return

Absorbing the disarray

Morbid attraction consumes my sanity

as I'm feeding off the frenzy

Red is all I see, black is all I feel

Dreams and thoughts turn against me

They seek the devastation of my mind

to free themselves

The ignorance possessed by me gnaws at my humanity

Oblivious to this fact, hatred plants it's seed in me

Inside I'm rotting, I'm slowly disappearing

as my madness is spreading like ripples on water

Everlasting inner battle between sane and insane

Co-existence is not an option

The eradication of one kills the other

They churn and grind at eachother

Causing lethal friction to close prey

The rotten core of my inner self

Screams and spits at all living matter

Contradicts my own being

Absorbing the disarray

Gone seems all hope of recovery

I'm engulfed in a vile mental world