Sabrina

I woke up from a deep sleep

I must have had a nightmare

But I really cannot remember

My heart was beating out of my chest

And I was cold, I must of let the window crack

Funny September and the winter's coming back

The house is unusually quiet and I'm wondering where Sabrina's at

By this time of the clock she would of been pulling on my blanket

Saying daddy "I want my cereal" wondering where her mommy's at

My door is wide open I can hear the breeze hit the curtains

Wind chime hanging on the front porch singing

Sabrina must be asleep

I pull back the sheet

Get up and walk to her room in the hall

Not a peep, not a sound, not at all

The anxiety of a father is settin' in

As I turn the corner to her room

Her Mickey Mouse blanket is on the floor

She isn't in the bed

I take a deep breath and put my hand on my head

Relax

Its a game of hide and seek

Shes in the closet I know it

I open the door

Gotcha!

She isn't there

The faint sound of the television from downstairs

Playing some cartoons she on the couch of course

How did I oversleep

Baby girl why didn't you come wake up daddy?

And neither responds

Fear turned to frustration

Sabrina answered me

'Brina this isn't funny

I ran into the couch and she's not there

I'm starting to panic and I'm looking up everywhere

Guest rooms, bath rooms, cabinets

On to the tables, the attic

Wait a minute, oh god, no

I know she wouldn't go outside

We live so far back in the woods

She wouldn't dare

Its to scary for a little girl just to go bye bye

I'm trying to escape my minds eye

But my imagination is running wild

At this point I'm talking to god

"Please lord, please I'm scared help me find my child"

I run to the basement

Sweat beats on my head

Pacing thinking, pacing thinking

Turn my face in

The screen door to the backyard's yard

I run to the swingset

Swingset? No

Sandbox? No

Goddammit Sabrina where'd you go?

There's a trail to a pond that I take her to everyday

Maybe she's down there

I run down the trail its about 100 yards

We usually hang out on the pier

And as I get close in

Everything moves slow motion

Her little white shirt on the surface of the water

She was there, lifeless floating

(Oh my god)

The pain I can't explain I couldn't see anything

I ran to the water

God is this really my daughter?

I picked her up she was really heavy

And hella tight in my arms

I took her out of the barn

I laid her on the grass

I couldn't breath I gas

Gave her CPR she wasn't responding to it

My phone in my pocket

My hands are shaking

My visions blurry

9-1-1'll send a ambulance in a hurry

But it was too late

No telling how long she wasn't breathing

Her skin was the color purple

Her lips were ice cold

She must have fell of the pier with her poor teddy bear

She tried to get out she got wood under her nails

God what did you do to us?

What of we doing I say my prayers at night

Heaven I been a consumer

What did you to do my baby

She's mine now give her back

You don't deserve her if you let her die like that