Screaming Dead Balloons

I sit on my lawn

Watching cars go by

I'd stay inside

Under [?]

I'm not lying no more

Not afraid or alone anymore

Not afraid of the daybreak

I feel like [?] or being alone

Being alone now

When it's all been decided for you

When I'm waiting for eternal fight

And it's all just a matter of facts

It's a long goodbye

I sit in my room

With the curtain pulled tight

Sleep away the afternoon

Stay awake all night

I'm not laughing no more

Not afraid or alone anymore

Not afraid of the daybreak

[?] being alone

All alone now

When it's all been decided for you

When I'm waiting for eternal fight

And it's all just a matter of facts

It's a long goodbye