Black Veins

At the crux of it, everything I have

These feelings cold as stone

The everyday tyrants of a better life

I never feel they will ever leave me alone

I have only to fear fear itself

But I have everything to lose

How funny that the fear we own

Is the one we get to choose

Why can't I choose something more?

Instead of fraying away at my mind

It's like my greatest fears at which I used to laugh

Are always by my side

I'm not scared of dying, more so of living

As for once I've everything to lose

This happiness and morality

Infecting everything I can't do

This feeling inside

It's like a thickening pain

The bleeding inside

The blood in these black veins

Just a moment alone, enough time with myself

When I can't bide my time with anyone else

This bleeding of thoughts, and broken memories

Is drowning in blood that I never need

The feeling inside, it's thickening pain

Anxiety inside of me

I hope I don't feel again

The feeling inside

It's a thickening pain

The bleeding inside

The blood in these black veins