The You I Created

It's hard to know exactly

When my dreams got weird

I tense up and get antsy when you're near

But nightly you appear to me

Ghostly in my head

But I never can remember what you said

It must be something reassuring

Something sweet and kind

Something you would never say in real life

Where does it go in the morning?

It slipped out of my hand

Eating breakfast with my other thoughts

Away from wakeful lands

Where is the you I created?

The you that I adore?

When my eyes are open I don't see you anymore

It's hard for me to fathom

That you disappeared

And turned into exactly what I feared

But every night you sing to me

When my eyes are closed

But I never can remember how it goes

It must be something undeserving

Only in my mind

Something you would never sing on your time

It disappears without warning

It shifts like grains of sand

Galavanting with some other dreams

I didn't understand

Where is the you I created?

The you that I adore?

When my eyes are open I don't see you anymore

But nightly you appear to me

Ghostly in my head

But I never can remember what you said